One Confession

i have to confess that, at times, i despair of ever getting everything together to move to be close to M'Lady again. i know it's not rational, but it seems like every time i've gotten to the verge of finally being able to get everything to start falling into place, some obstacle hurls itself at me and prevents me from doing so. i'm on a reasonably strong path toward being able to move, now, but part of me keeps waiting for the Universe to undo the progress i've made.