It's been interesting these last couple of weeks; I finished up a temporary contract right before NEEHU, and have been at loose ends until very recently. This has meant that my service to the Goddess has been in the form of duties around the household and lining up another assignment, and just generally doing whatever She tells me to. It's that last one that was most interesting the other day--She commanded me to offer Her my pleasure. (This is kind of the advantage to having the house to myself during the day. So long as the shades are drawn, nobody's going to mind what I do.)
I wound up putting a DVD into the player, an old one I bought before I became Hers, and watching it on the couch. Actually, it didn't do much for me anymore...after years of reading and writing erotica, going to kink cons, and being in a full-time D/s relationship 24/7, just watching two women have sex is kind of bland. :) (Some people claim that you can get "desensitized" to porn and wind up needing more extreme forms to satisfy your desires; I think it's just that once you find your specific turn-ons, generic porn is less attractive. Someone whose personal hot button is two women with a strap-on is never going to be all that excited about het porn, no matter how "extreme" it gets. Everyone's got a kink, and everyone thinks everyone else's kink is "a little weird". :) )
Ultimately, though, I wound up thinking of Goddess when I came. I usually do; the things She does to me are hotter than most of the fantasies I read about, because they've really happened. I thought about Her eyes, the way they capture me...Her touch, the way it sends me deeper...Her words, the way they sink into my mind...by the end, I was chanting Her name and my eyes were open but unseeing. Then, as commanded, I texted Her with the message, "i have obeyed".
Then I took a little nap. Because you know, doing the work of the Goddess really takes it out of you. :)
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